Look Up

Hello, today was fine. During the school year Sundays are kind of a waste, and just the time you spend doing homework, chores, whatever you didn't get done earlier in the week. Although this is a three-day weekend, so that theory is a little out of wack, but you get it.

This is a personal interpretation of college I sent her

Bwa ha ha. Ohh college.

I've started writing what I call a novel, five pages long so far but you've gotta start somewhere. I guess the thing is, sometimes when I'm writing in my diary or writing letters or something I start feeling repetitive and melodramatic. And my 'novel' is a firsthand account of a fictional character who just happens to be going through everything I am, and none of it can be stupid or a lie because it's not me, it's this character. And when I'm writing like this I can give myself a voice of how I want to sound. Which just happens to be very much like Brian from Joe Meno's Hairstyles of the Damned because I just finished reading that a second time because it's just that good:

"He was a kid, you know; he could have been me, four years before, fucking ignorant and dumb, scared of not being cool, scared of not fitting in. He really could have been me. That was what I started thinking. And I didn't like the idea of being made fun of by someone I used to be, some kid who was scared and who wanted to be something, anything but himself."

Also this weekend I spent Friday and Saturday night watching two sequential Richard Linklater films: Before Sunrise and Before Sunset, with Ethan Hawke and Judy Delpy. Basically there's an American guy and a French girl riding a train to their respective destinations in Europe, and they get involved in conversation, and connect -- from that point on out, the whole movie is basically one conversation. The second movie too, actually, with a substantial break in between, but still. It's totally romantic; however, it's not bullshit. And it's just beautiful. The connection the two make, the insights they point out and the details they appreciate, these are just two perfect movies in my opinion. Please, please watch them. One particular moment of conversation in Before Sunset was so intense and moving and real that it just made me want to get up and not waste another second doing anything meaningless; I just wanted to do everything and affect people and change the world.

... and here I am, blogging away online, but maybe I could at least inspire you to rent the movies? Here's probably my favorite quote of both movies, probably because of its current relevance: "You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made up of such beautiful and specific details." Ahhh. I think a couple girls from school are coming over tomorrow and re-watching them with me, so I'm looking forward to that.

I'm also looking forward to going to sleep and nuzzling up in my new down comforter. It makes me want to hibernate until December. Mmmm so comfortable.

"But me, I'm not a gamble.
You can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening
by the morning, won't exist."
[Lua, Bright Eyes]

posted by Allison Francis @ 11:08 PM