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Because I am not nearly cool or indie enough to have a real mp3 blog, I've decided to share maybe one song per entry. So here it is (follow the link and wait to be able to click the 'download' button) : Since U Been Gone - covered by Ted Leo.

So. It's nearly mid-October. Which means, about 2 months till salt (Sam/Allison/Lauren/Tai, for the uninformed) reunites. Which doesn't sound that bad... but considering how long (or not long) they've been gone ... it's so out of reach.

I came to the simple realization today that sometimes you just feel a certain way and there's nothing else to it. You don't need complex words or thought processes to fully articulate it because it's truly simple. Tonight I was lying on Clare's bed when she was in the other room and James Blunt's "Goodbye my Lover" was on the stereo and I thought about how much I miss my friends who are gone. And I don't really need to say anything else. Because all it is, is, I miss them so much and want to be with them again.

I left Clare's and returned to the ragin' party at Jill's (rather under control actually but with quite a few people in attendance) and took a walk with this girl Caitlin and it was cold and wet out but we went streaking anyways. For me it was kind of an act of defiance against the stupid wet weather soaking my stupid tired spirit. Naked shrieking girls running down a dark street, adrenaline pumping, terrified of getting caught ... very cliche teenager. It made me think of summer and how much easier it was to be happy back then. For me, I was given the world, and the chance to do whatever I wished with it. So I did. Now that's all gone and I'm not really that good of a person and it's hard to find peace in such lonely times.

Driving home in the fog I could barely see and I was listening to my mixtape and I felt angry and desperate, and I skid dangerously on the curves, and I drove by Lauren's house, and I couldn't believe how much I missed her.

"Scars are souvenirs you never lose, the past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?
Don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are?"
[Goo Goo Dolls]

posted by Allison Francis @ 12:05 AM