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who are you: just one person. just allison. still in the makings, or at least the discoverings.

what are you doing: thinking too much, or maybe too little, about life and the people in it that make it important. also, lying in bed, getting ready to fall asleep and then wake up in three hours.

where are you going: the east coast, to escape and explore and adventure and hope.

recommend (something): telling the truth down to every last detail even stupid or embarrassing things that don't matter. (wow, that sounded cliche... but when you can look a person in the eyes and know you have never lied to them, it's a both liberating and frightening feeling.) also, writing letters. also, the book "extremely loud & incredibly close." there is another one, but i'm editing this for public publishing purposes.

what is your idea of a perfect day: i just don't really believe in perfect, but nowadays, i'd like to wake up next to bestfriends in a big ol' city like new york and prepare to play music together and eat delicious food (there is an empty plate of what used to be pad thai by my bed) and stay up late that night having real conversations.

what's your favorite quote:
i have lots. here are two:
"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them." - from Perks
"When we first were friends you asked me what I believed in. I never answered. I believe in you. I believe in us."
- a text from a friend I got on the plane ride home in October

maybe you should fill this out.

posted by Allison Francis @ 2:44 AM 0 comments

Regardless of how seldom I write in this, I still feel as though an end-of-the-year entry would be nice. If nothing else, to give one giant "fuck you" to 2007. It was easily the worst year of my life, and I know I'm not the only one for whom that is true. I don't really need to say too much about that because everyone close to me knows some of the shit that went down and I don't feel a need to re-cap it.

In vintage Allison Francis form, however, I should recognize that if the worst year of my life also contained meeting people that would change my life, and change me - as well as the opportunity for a fresh start in an incredible city - then I remain blessed.

I can't say I'm feeling incredibly optimistic about 2008, because although 2007 is over, I am still exactly where it left me. We all are. And things still feel heavy. But in times like ours we have to take what we can get; we don't have a choice. So 2008, bring it on. But please take it easy.

"Sad to still be here, but happy to be alive
It seems the more one lives the less one thrives...

I raise my glass just one more time
Try to write another rhyme, a word that rhymes with hopeful...
for the new year"

posted by Allison Francis @ 9:20 PM 1 comments